Does the sword enjoy being honed, or the diamond cut and polished?
Growth is never easy. It’s never a simple thing to evolve and develop. In nature evolution takes generations to produce new and exciting creatures. Human nature is different. We only have one lifetime to evolve into something beautiful. And that means we need to push ourselves a lot harder to ever get there. As I grow my businesses and develop my body and skills, I go through more turmoil than the old, complacent me would have thought possible.
Every day brings new challenges and struggles. Every day it feels like giving up and just surviving could be enough. But I persevere, as you should. As I’ll continue to. Someday my tone will be different, someday I’ll be talking to the next generation about how much I struggled when I was their age. I’ll be telling them that I know what it’s like to have nothing but struggle behind you and ahead of you. But they won’t believe me.
They’ll see the success I’ll of earned, the complex systems I’ll of built, the financial and social success and they’ll think it was easy for me. That I never had to work. That I was born the way I will be and that I never had to work a day in my life to get there. That these achievements just happen without any conscious effort. That’s the real shame, because it may deter them from ever trying.
But I know as they’ll hopefully learn that achieving things in a competitive world is hard. There are always people trying to top you, or stop you at every turn. People who say they believe in you and who openly doubt you. People who say these things can’t be done, you can’t build that business, or that won’t work or if it was a good idea someone would have already done it. No. Each of us has something unique to bring to every table we sit at and its only through conscious effort and tremendous amounts of perseverance that we can ever get there.
I could lead a life of complacency and accept the full time job and 2 weeks of paid vacation. But then I wouldn’t be me, and that to me is the ultimate deceit that I won’t stand for. To give up on myself before I even try. Never. I won’t do it.
Today may make me approach the limits of my endurance as tomorrow most likely will to. But that’s the cost of growth and that’s a price I’m willing to pay because I know theirs going to be a day where it’ll all be worth it. Where my obsession will pay more dividends than apathy ever could.
It’s as they say, you have to spend money to make money as you have to spend a big part of yourself to get a whole lot more back. That personal cost, the toll it’s taking on me is larger than I’d ever thought possible. And it’s only going to increase from here as I become more and more successful.